we are back and i am soooo happy!!!! we have been through some rough times especially before we both got out of school. we weren't sure if our V/l relationship would become an R/l relationship and it is for sure going to be a real life transition. It might be one more year while i finish school where i am and then we will be together at last! and that will be such a WONDERFUL day! Now i must focus on getting my slave back into shape. Since we faught and all that for a while we have lost some respect from one another but are quickly regaining that respect and trust back. I just can't wait till this becomse a real life realtionship instead of a virtual one. although we have made it work it is hard at times when we just want to talk and have fun with one another. yes we can do that but there is no physical part in this relationship and i am a ver physical person not in a sexual way but i do like to be physically close to the person i am with. and over the internet that just isn't possible. So even though it can't come soon enough we will be together. and i know i love my slave... i love him a lot and he makes me so happy except when he disobeys ofcourse. things will get back on track slowly maybe but we are getting there. hopefully everything will turn out!

Mistress K

Hello all, Mistress K's slave here, i'm posting because i was told to, but also because i want to. You see, me and Mistress K's relationship went downhill for a while, and i was really depressed. We went through some bad times, but we worked everything out and now we are better than ever. She is going to start to be really really strict with me and control practically everything about me. We are really starting to get majorly into the lifestyle. I love my Mistress more than anything in the world, and i will do anything for her. She is so beautiful, and i am proud and lucky to be owned by her. I cannot wait until we cross paths in real life instead of cyberspace and the phone, but until then it works just fine. I am also in love with my Mistress, we have fallen for each other. I love how i can just talk to Her about anything, and her personality is perfect. We have the same interests and views, and everything is just perfect between us. I am so thankful we found each other. We are going to be together asap and i love that feeling. I will remain her slave though at the same time. I am thankful for everything, and she has made me really really happy. I am glad she is going to start to get strict on my ass, i love it. Well, i'm off for now bye all

-MK's slave

Hell all Mistress K speaking......
So my sub arrived home yesterday and we got to talk for a couple hours lastnight and what not which was brilliant. And then we talked today and things were said that weren't meant by either party. But it escalated to a huge fight where i almost lost him and he almost lost me. I know as a mistress i should keep my feelings and emotions in check but this time i couldn't do that. I tried so hard to do it and not get mad and not say the things i said but i faild miserably. This is someting i am still working very hard at. most of the time i don't show my anger or frustration unless it reaches a point where my sub needs to know he is crossing the line. But this time there was no warning and it was an explosion of chaotic emotions from both sides. i think in part it had something to do with the fact that we haven't talked in over a week and emotions were high and what not. But i must remember to stay calm in any situation... and to not get so frustrated. so i appologize to my sub for not being the mistress i should have been in this situation. I am doing my very best to keep myself composed. That is all for today.

Mistress K

Hello again, Mistress K speaking. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately (which can sometimes be a very bad thing) but in this case i came to a few conclusions through just pondering general feelings i have and thinking about my relationship with my sub. so here is what i have come to...
1)Compatibility: This is a subject i have actually thought about quite a bit. My sub and I are very compatable, both as Mistress and slave and as people. We enjoy many of the same things, listen to a lot of the same music, and always have something to talk about. We enjoy talking just as much as we enjoy playing. That is how i see it anyway. I mean if we weren't compatable then this wouldn't be working so well now would it? He is usually very good and always willing to do what i ask of him. Although sometimes i wish he would lose his attitude when he is with his friends or gets back from hanging out with them. I try to be as forgiving as i can but after a time i can't be so lenient. And he understands. That is why we work so well together. We are still working out a few kinks and ofcourse we have our moments but we always work through them.
2) Love: Again this is something i have thought about and pondered before. Is it possible for a Mistress/Master to fall IN love with his or her sub? ofcourse it is possible, as long as both parties accept the lifestyle and enjoy the roles they are in. And there is mutual understanding. Am i personally in love with my sub? No, not yet anyway. I hope someday that that feeling is something we will share but not at this point in time. do i love him? ofcourse i do. I love him dearly and care about him very much. I have told him everything i ask of him will help in the long run. I do try my very best to look out for him and i always will. now you might be asking " Does he love you?" i believe he does. I can't speak for him though but in his actions and when we are talking freely he always tells me he loves me. Now what kind of love is it? It is the kind of love you can build on. We deffinitly aren't passionatly in love to the extent where everything else doesn't matter, but we deffinitly love eachother and care about eachother. This can conly come from mutual respect for one another and we have that. He respects me as his Mistress and i repect him as my slave. We may not be in love but i can honestly say he is the one i want as my own for the rest of my life. I will forever be his Mistress,friend, and future lover, and he will forever be my slave,friend, and future lover, unless there is mustual separation, but something tells me that isn't happening any time soon.
3) Play: Play is something that is difficult for our relationship since we don't have an r/l relationship (yet). We are confined by cyber space which makes play somewhat limited. I mean there is only so much we can do. I try to change things up again holding play sessions in different areas (at his desk, on the floor, him tied to his bed, etc.) I sometimes feel bad becuase i feel the lack of creativity is the result of myself. I try to do things that keep him in his place and remind him of his submissiveness to me. but there is always that little lurking feeling in the back of my mind that something isn't good enough. That is why we have explored humiliation to remind him of me always. This is actually working out very well and i do believe we both enjoy it (even though he is a little hesitant at first) he always does what he is told in the end and realizes that it isn't that bad. I would never ask him to do anything that would bring him harm. Slowly but surely he is learning that.
4)Openness: I try to be as open as possible with my sub, becuase a good relationship ( either BDSM or Vanilla ) is based on trust and honesty. I will never lie to my sub and he ( i would hope ) would never lie to me. But his lack of openness concerns me at times. Like i said earlier i love him and care about him and when he doesn't tell me what is going on when he is upset and/or angry i can't do anything for him to help him or to comfort here. This unsettles me a bit becuase i can't figure out why he won't talk to me. I just want him to know i am always here for him no matter what. Any time he has concerns about anything ( in or out of our relationship ) i will listen to him and his concerns and give the best advice i can give. I just want to make sure he knows he can trust me. That is really the only concern i have with him. Becuase like i said it worries me that he doesn't talk to me the way i talk to him. We are also still working on things and our relationship is still growing and blossoming. Things will get better. They always do!
Conclusion: WEll after actually writing this all out i feel alot better. all those different things rolling around in my head can get very exausting at times. These are just a few of my many ponderings. Hope you enjoyed. Have a great day!

Mistress K

My Mistress and I have had a great week, my training is coming along well and everything. We've had 2 great sessions this week, and the first one i posted about already. Now for the other one. My Mistress instructed me to tie myself to the bed, so i did so without question. She then put me in my place again and made me feel like a true slave, and that my only reason in life is to be Hers. I love that feeling, i love feeling so below Her, and feeling completely submissive to Her. I even was complimented on how i didn't struggle to get out of my bonds or anything. Next, i had to untie my hands, and we used a massive amount of hot wax, WITHOUT ICE, so it hurt like a bitch, but i deserved it nonetheless and loved every minute of it. I moaned and winced in pain so much, it was unbelievible. I had to drip it all the way down my stomach in a long line, and continue down onto my penis. It hurt like no other, but i did it and enjoyed it for my Mistress, even though it was painful. I then had to tease myself for a LONG amount of time, with warming lubricant/massage oil. I kept being made to go to the edge then stop, at least 5 times. It was horrible but enjoyable torture. I then had to repeat the wax procedure AGAIN. I even had to put duct tape on my chest all the way down to my pubes and push down hard on it so it stuck good and pull it off. That hurt as well, but it served me right. I love being at my Mistress' mercy, and the training is starting to get really intense. She is starting to not take any shit from me, and continuously gets stricter and stricter. As time progresses, she has informed me its just going to intensify even more. I love it though, and i love submitting to my Mistress. She owns me and i am her property. I am controlled mind body and soul by my Mistress, and i love it. My life is dedicated to serving her for the rest of my life, and i am proud of it. I am so proud to be Hers, i don't even deserve to be, because i am so below her, but she allows me to be it anyways. To end our session, i had to finish masterbating, but stop right when i knew i was gonna cum to make it hurt. I did not receive any sort of pleasure from the orgasm, it was a painful one, but i love it nonetheless. I only occasionally receive pleasure, because i really don't deserve it at all. She decides when i get that, not me. I have no say in anything of the sort. I can't wait to be her slave full time in real life. I'm gonna be fully controlled 24/7 and i wouldn't have it any other way. I am hers for life. I will even be locked away in a cage for a bed i'm told, and i love it anyways. I love my new life serving my Mistress, and i wouldn't have it any other way.

-slave g